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One question becomes another. You notice the glance at the clock, shorten the message, and say sorry before your excitement has finished finding its words. The conversation ends, but you are still answering it in your mind.
TOO MUCH follows the quiet cost of masking a neurodivergent inner life: the questions taken back, the stories held inside, the habit of leaving yourself out so someone else will let you in.
Then comes a small invitation: “Wait... Finish your story.” The old echo is still there. You are learning that someone can need a minute and still want to hear you. There is room to try again, and to let more of yourself stay.
Part of SIGNAL OVER STATIC, TEKNOLUST’s continuing collection of human stories in electronic sound.
TOO MUCH TEKNOLUST
I ask one question, then another I just want to understand You check the time, I lose my nerve Say, “Never mind,” and take it back I can’t remember where my keys are But I remember your sigh The conversation’s long since over I’m still answering in my mind
A little less excited A little less to say I’m getting good at being here Without getting in your way
Too much, too much I can hear it in your sigh I’m already saying sorry For the way I come alive I keep leaving myself out So you’ll let me in Let me in Let me in
Three paragraphs about a song I thought you might like I cut them to “This sounds good” And kept the rest inside Now you ask why I’ve gone quiet Why I never let you in I got so good at saying less I don’t know where to begin
A little less excited A little less to say I’m getting good at being here Without getting in your way
Too much, too much I can hear it in your sigh I’m already saying sorry For the way I come alive I keep leaving myself out So you’ll let me in Let me in Let me in
Tell me when you need a minute I can give you room I’m still learning that a pause Doesn’t mean I’m losing you
Wait... Finish your story.
Too much, too much Still the echo in my mind But you wait until I finish And you don’t look at the time I keep leaving myself out But I want to be let in All of me Let me in
All of me (Echoes)